IT'S ALL ABOUT HIM

By:Haggai

May 16, 2016

Today, I received a text message from our Worship Leader to replace him in leading the worship services this coming Sunday due to some instances. When I first read the message, I felt being sad because of all the burdens in my heart. I started to worry about a lot of things like "could i lead the people into God's presence?", "I'm not okay, I cannot do it." and "How to do it if I’m broken?”. However, I replied to him and said "its okay kuya, ako po magsonglead sa Sunday". 

After I sent the message, I started to think again. Then suddenly, I remember the time when I first attended the worship practice in our church: 

It was September 2011, Saturday night. When I entered the church, I saw the worship team members busy on setting up the instruments. Bye the way, I'm a newbie in our church that time, I'm attending our church services for about 5 months. When they saw me, they greeted me. I was so shy that time so I just smile on them and sit on the chair at the backside of church. They started to practice songs for Sunday services. After the practice, some of the members talked to me and others just greeted me. Then we all went home to rest and prepare ourselves for tomorrow’s service.

During that time, the desire in my heart to be part of the worship team is burning. I said to myself that I wanted to be part of the Worship team. I wanted to use my singing talent in God’s kingdom. Our Worship Leader talked to me and asked if I wanted to join the team. Of course, I said a big YES! Then he said, “Let’s see”. So, the cycle continues. I attend the Worship practice every Saturday night. During those practices, I only sit on the vacant chair, watch them while practicing and listen when they talk or share. That time, I do not understand why they do not give me or us time to sing. That question was left on my mind. Then I started complaining why they do not train us or something. But still, I attend the practice. Until one practice, our worship leader talked to all the apprentice about what is our heart in worship team. Of course most of us answered that we wanted to be part of it to use our talent in God’s Kingdom. Then, our Worship Team Leader told us:

          “Mahalaga ang talent para malaman mo kung saan kang ministry tinawag ni Lord. Pero hindi lang ito ang magiging basehan. You must be called din & with a heart that worship God. This ministry is the most crucial ministry in this church (or even in the other churches) because we usher people into God’s presence. Balewala ang talent mo kung yung heart mo ay hindi buong sumasamba sa Panginoon. Now, andito kayong lahat, sinasabi n’yo na gusto n’yong magamit ni Lord sa pamamagitan ng Worship ministry. Yes, we believe on that. But still, we are looking for your heart.”

That boomed my heart so much and changed my entire mindset about worship ministry and even in the other ministries.

And going back to the present times, suddenly all my worries fade away. I was reminded with one of my greatest realization about Worship: “IT’S ALL ABOUT JESUS!”

Oh Yes! It’s not about me, it’s all about Him. Then, all the "could I lead the people into God's presence?", "I'm not okay, I could not do it." and "How to do it if I’m broken?” gone. It’s been almost 3 years since I begun in Worship Leading. There are times that I lead people even I’m broken inside, even I don’t feel okay, or sometimes, I’m sick, yet, God is faithful. During those times, I realized that is God is really good; He is in control of everything and His power could give joy & peace to the broken-hearted.

Everything is all about Him - that mindset, that heart, that is all I forgot. So I worried a lot. Yes, I will be leading Worship on Sunday and with these reminders I told to myself “Lord ikaw na talaga. Ikaw na ang maglead sakin. It’s all about you. You look at my heart Lord and you can see its brokenness. But then, I will worship you. Gamitin mo lahat lahat sakin Lord. I will hold on you Lord. I love you.”

Now, I’m excited! I know He will move in His very mighty way. I’m excited to see His miracles and to experience His presence! He is good!

Now, to the one reading this, Brother, this is my exhortation to you. JUST KEEP ON MOVING! In times of worries, just be reminded of how great our God. In times of trials, just trust Him. In times of depression, lift your hands and worship the Lord. Maybe you have a lot of “what ifs” in your mind but always remember that ONLY HIM IS ALL WE NEED. His power is made perfect in all our weaknesses. JUST KEEP MOVING!